an accident victim reflects on returning to full-time employment

being back to work after my insane month of injuries, surgeries, and other -ries.. is decidedly weird.

i wrestled a lot with whether i felt up to the challenge of going back to work full-time. on one hand, i was bored to tears living at my parent's house watching movies and reading books. on the other hand, i was still only two and a half weeks away from a pretty intense surgical procedure. i was still suffering from fatigue and some pain.

in the end, i think i made the right call. i'm two days into employment, and there have been no disasters, no onsets of exhaustion or pain, and i'm feeling pretty happy. my job, believe it or not, can be a lot of fun. and so given the option to spend 8 hours a day getting paid to do work that is interesting and enjoyable, or spend 8 hours not getting paid to be mostly bored, i'll choose work.

until i arrived at work on monday morning, it wasn't exactly clear what i'd be doing when i got back here. right when the accident occurred, i was beginning a planned transition back to account work. this was the plan all along and everything was right on time. the accident, however, derailed those plans.. and so i'm still up here doing admin work at the front desk. i had let it be known that i was hoping to start immediately on account work upon my return and leave the admin work behind, but it appears that is not in the cards at the moment. while that's a slight bummer, i'm starting to think maybe a slow transition is the best. account work is insane even when it's slow. and i don't know if i'm ready for insane. i am feeling pretty good about the level of work i'm being given now, so maybe a few weeks of this while i'm recovering is what's best for my health and my sanity.

of course, come june 1st when my security deposit and first month's rent are due at my new apartment, i might be singing a different tune.

but to be honest, i can't worry about that shit right now. i've gotta put my health and my recovery first and let everything else sort itself out. and it will.