i'm exhausted.

i was going to write a big long blog, but in the interest of self-preservation, i have decided instead to go to bed before 11:00pm in an effort to save my body from destroying itself.

last night's concert had me up till 2:30am and i'm just dead tired.

so, for those who wondered, the jimmy eat world concert was fucking FANTASTIC. it was exactly what i had hoped for and more. from the first chords of "lucky denver mint" all the way to "goodbye sky harbor", i don't think i stopped singing for a second. for fans of that record who feared how they were going to pull off the extended ending at the end of the record, i have to say ... it was done so perfectly. jim adkins put down his guitar at the end and had all these loop pedals. he kept layering his vocals down until there was that entire chorus of alternating voices just like on the album. i was so totally impressed.

i drove home with chris, who opted to join me and keep me company on the drive home. we had an amazing conversation. he admitted to reading my blog on the regular. hi, chris. more importantly, we had a really long talk about life and how we both struggled to find things to be passionate about as we get older. when we were younger and in a band together, it was so easy to pour our lives into our music. i think we both thought that when we started working and our careers that we'd get more fulfillment/meaning out of it. i think we've both come to realize that even a fun job is still a job and that you have to go elsewhere to really find your passions.

anyway, we both agreed that at a bare minimum, we can be more passionate about making plans to hang out more often. CHRIS, CALL A DUDE.

i got home, decompressed, and ended up falling asleep at 2:30am.

i woke up for work today exhausted, but feeling okay. the workday did it's best to try and knock me down, but i'm staying on top of things. or trying to at least. each day i feel like i'm getting more and more of a handle on the changes and my new roles. i just have to keep at it. the transition itself is the hardest part. my old team hesitant to relinquish responsibilities and my new team anxious to get me started means twice the workload.

i took a nice little break from work at 3:30 to get.... a ROOT CANAL! yaaaaaah! ever since the accident, i feel it's been a total dental free-for-all. hopefully this last thing will fix the pain/issues and i'll be able to eat normally finally.

after the root canal, i went back to work because i'm a glutton for punishment. finished up around 7:00, got home and decrompressed for a few minutes and then it was onto watching LOST.

and now i'm here. back to bed. in 8 hours i'll be awake again and repeating the process, minus the root canal.

ugh.

at least i won't be exhausted.

turns out this blog was a little longer than i planned, but it's still before 11:00 at least. off to bed! goodnight!