hiding out

i've been hiding from the blog lately.

lots of things swirling through my mind and all of them break the "do not make your blog into a livejournal" rule of my blog.

my life is in a holding pattern. i can see things starting to take shape ahead of me, but it's too early to do anything about it. the anticipation combined with the inaction is something that's hard to get used to.

there are plans i want to start putting in motion, trips i want to make, adventures i want to go on, projects i want to start, things that i've been intending to do for a while. but all around, everywhere you look, there's signs that now is a "wait and see" kind of time.

somewhere between work being too busy right now and everyone saying recession! recession! recession! it seems like now is the time to keep your head down, work hard, try not to get laid off, save money where you were previously spending it, and get through what could potentially be a very difficult time ahead. now doesn't feel like the time to be reckless.

so instead of being reckless, i'm hatching plans. i'm letting them see the light of day in very small increments. knowing that once the time is right, i'll be ready to come out guns blazing.

it's just hard to wait. but i'm planning nonetheless.